Lots of things have happened in recent months and I haven't updated anyone of them yet until now hah. Think I'm getting more lazy than anyone else in this world to get things done. It way past midnight and I'm trying very hard to recall what has happened. (Really can't recall all of them). Who cares anyway about things that had happened so long ago? Time to look ahead... Yah. I should
Loneliness is what I have for companionship for so many years. I'm used to it anyway. Staying at home alone. It's quite private anyway, no one to bother you, no one to nag at you and you can do whatever you want without anyone giving you their advices about how you should do it. Shiok. Wonderful. Superb~
Recently having second thought about selling my iPAQ 2210. Actually, I had wanted to sell that gadget away because doesn't seems to really matter to me cause I've never really used it. But somehow or rather, I had made some adjustments to it and viola~ instant gaming machine. Haha. Probably that's why I didn't auction it out. (actual fact that I couldn't find a buyer)
Lots of things have happened recently, some friends told me that they are having second thoughts about their relationships (if you know who you are, and if you think that it's not nice for me to say these, let me know asap, so that i'll remove it asap also~) Why the second thoughts? why now? Didn't you had tried very hard to convince yourselves and the other party that it will work out if you put much efforts into it and with lots of perseverance and determinations? You had showered the other party with care and concern, show them that you are really, really very serious about the relationship and that you are totally in love with them, so what went wrong? Why the sudden change of mindset? IF it's just simple, small misunderstandings, then I think it's really just all talk and no actions. IF not, then in my opinion, you are wasting your time. Totally. Why in the first place should you have tried to retain/maintain the relationship when cracks have appeared?
No offense to anyone, but I'm still at hating this world. Haha. Every different individuals have differents thoughts and perceptions. One man's meat is another's poison. Not everyone share the same ideas. That's what I've learnt these weekends. You can't please everyone. So what if you have put in 100% effort in your job and your work is not recognised at all? In my opinion, You can do two things. ONE, change your job. TWO, change your attitude. To you, you may have done your best and put in much efforts, but to your management, you may not have done enough to achieve what they expected. Yes, you have done your best, but could you have improved over your best? For example, long time ago, it was thought that no human being could run below 10sec for the 100 metres dash. The record stands for more that 50 years. But too bad, some idiot broke it and the world record is now below 10sec. What does this means? it means that the best has been beaten.
It's not wrong that you'd expect something in return if you have put in much effort in it, be it at work or in a relationship. It's okay to expect returns, that's human's nature. Else why would anyone wants to put in efforts for something? JUST FOR FUN? That's dumb. Also, don't expect that things will just come to you, you've to work hard for it. Run towards your goals and dreams, not wait for durians to drop. Someone told me that before, because I always wait for the durians.
